~mEmOrIeS~

~hehe~

2004-11-14T21:14:00.000-08:00

today nothing much to write... hehe... erm... just now go buy badminton stuffs... den go see see lor... hehe... den go to tiong bahru... go inside shop shop nor... hehe... den neh... buy CD... hehe... also dunno what to write... hehe... didnt do much today leh... den go to chinatown... go take dinner nor... hehe... erm... den me come home le nor... sleeping in the car just now... very tired... haiz... yesterday din go training... hehe... overslept... hehe... tuesday sure kena scolding... hehe... den neh... giong to Malaysia le... whole badminton team... hehe... shiok... hehe... i think its from 30th november to 3rd december... hehe... k lah... dun write le... next time got things then write... hehe... bub bye...

~long time din update le~

2004-11-08T23:09:00.000-08:00

haiz... so long din update le... also nothing much to write... all stupid things... write le waste time only... haha... erm... last few days go chalet... very fun... 2 days never sleep... haiz... go arcade and escape... quite nice... play until siao... haha... den eat 3 burgers at one time... 1 rendang burger... 1 mushroom swiss double burger... and 1 BBQ turkey bacon burger... haha... shiok... den at nite play labtop... hehe... den today... go play basketball... haiz... sprained my leg... pain like hell... haha... den come home nothing to do... tml dun need to go PT again... sian... my physical lacking le... haiz... dun care le lah... i hate being at home all by myself... this feeling sucks... haiz... very boring ah... haiz... dun wan write le lah... sian like hell... bub bye...

~plAy~

2004-10-15T14:41:00.000-07:00

so long din update le... haha... now at seng ying house... very fun... exam nearly finishing le... left one more... today scince very difficult... sian like hell... also dun care le lah... haiz... this few days... heh heh... dunno lah... better dun write... hehe... now thinking what to do after exam... haha... just say lah... i think over le... i know what i wan now... hope that day can come... hehe... k lah... dun write le... go play now... bub bye...

~tEsT~

2004-10-01T19:29:00.000-07:00

today quite sian... erm... jus now morning the assembly very sian... so long de... den kena grooming check... sian lor... kena... but never asked to go out... haha... den geography... 1 period only... haha... den got self-study den CME lor... very sian... erm... den recess pass her the thing lor... erm... after recess... sian... history... kena scolded... den the OHP spoil... den miss fazlin ask me go borrow... den i go 2D... den when i come back... she ask"where you borrow from?"... den i tell her 2D... den she scold"you stupid ah,why never go 2C?"... den i diam diam... never say... den she like not happy... den got test... sian lor... haiz... after that got the maths... mock exam take during lesson... sian... 36 only... den he not happy... A2 le lor... sian... den after that go lot 1... eat... den after that wait for seng ying they all... go play again... haha... shiok... me and seng ying perfect pair... haha... less than 5 minutes catch all le.. haha... pro... den go back study... haha... after that go home le lor... haha... haven eat... hungry like hell... haha... k lah... dun write le... bub bye...

~bLoCk cAtChInG~

2004-09-29T20:56:00.000-07:00

haha... today very fun... eh... starting of school... never bring PE... sian... cannot play... still must do push-ups... den chinese... also nothing... haha... den art... not bad lah... today still okie... den folk dance also nothing... den maths... the test i got 17/28 only... sian... so lousy... haha... but whole class also so lousy... den DnT... do the wood thing... make the heart... haha... so nice... haha... den after school go bing rong house... haha... fun part comes... haha... at first i and amoz catcher... haha... i at first catch bing rong... i catch him in the lift... den seng ying... sian... catch until both of us fall down... pain like hell... haha... den got the next 2 round... i never get caught... haha... pro... run until siao... the 3rd round... bing rong, seng ying and me jus get out of the lift talking... amoz come le... he stand outside the lift... den he say 'hello'... we all stunned... stand there go nothing... den suddenly run lor... haha... scareded... haha... den me go back de science... copy the atoms thing... haha... den i come back le... tok to her... haha... me feeling guai guai de... dunno why leh... jus got that feeling... like got something in my mind but dunno what it is... very "fun" lor... all the past comes back... mabbie thats why... haha... den come use com le lor... k le lah... dun write le... go eat dinner... bub bye...

~fUn~

2004-09-27T19:03:00.000-07:00

hehe... today... nothing much... start from school... at first got english... nothing much nor... den maths... do work only... den after recess got chinese... sian lor... kena scolded... cuz the teacher say his famous phrase"lao shi ye you zi zun xing de... ni bu yao tian zhen lah..." den i keep laughing... den he keep on scold me... haha... den chinese spelling le... we copy he also dunno... i copy from the book... haha... den music lor... nothing much... den got science practical test... haha... got one solution smelly like hell... smell le wanna cry... haha... den sexuality... tok about porn... haha... not so good de... haha... den after school le... go lot 1... eat first... den golibrary study... haha... den go take neoprint with cherie... after that go bing rong house... haha... den come back le... hehe... nothing much le... haha... k lah... dun write le... bub bye...

~tRa|n|nG~

2004-09-25T23:57:00.000-07:00

haiz... sian... now dunno what to do le... haiz... sad... k lah... todya got training... very early wake up... den watch tv... den go eat 1st... after that go arcade... den go training le lor... haha... den very easy... physical so little... haiz... den go grandma house lor... eat... den come home le... sian... tok to her on phone... got a familiar feeling coming to my heart... dunno what i thinking... better dun think le... or i will go crazy again... cuz... love hurts... i feel that... dunno how to say... haiz... k lah... dun write le... wan to think first... bub bye...

~pUnIsH~

2004-09-24T17:15:00.000-07:00

haha... come home le... haiz... in school today sian... haha... morning got geography... nothing much... only very hungry... cuz last nite never take dinner... somemore got badminton... haha... den self-study den CME lor... nothing much... den after recess... sian... kena punished... run like hell... like got about 10 rounds... sian... damn wet... den history... still got test... haiz... sian... den maths... also test... kao eh... siao lor... den after school go badminton a while... play play... haha... den wait for rayson den go lot 1... told him mabbie will see her... den really see... sian... den act never see... haha... den a while come home le... sian lor... haiz... thinking about alot of things... mabbie yinling is rite... i am just cheating myself... zi qi qi ren... haiz... dun care le lah... think think also no use... haha... mood swing seh... like girl liddat... haiz... crap lah... i think i should think carefully... must be truthful to myself... haha... k lah... dun write le... bub bye...

~bAdMinToN~

2004-09-23T20:41:00.000-07:00

haha... reach home le.. haha... today school not bad... morning got the english... not bad... den literature... sia lah... this one good... haha... ms lim ask question i answer alot... she say excellent... haha... first time... haha... den say macbeth was unrespected... haha... den i tell yin ling:"throw egg at mecbeth... eh... no no... cannot egg very expensive... throw tomato better"... haha... den after i tell her... ms lim say the same thing as me... haha... den yin ling laugh like hell... haha... den tok about her "jacks place" story... haha... erm... after recess... chinese... no teacher... do nothing... den maths... same same... haha... den go badminton le lor... den eating lunch... Tan do something very disgusting... den i shout F@!K at him lor... den mr sim hear... scold me... never mind... used to it le... haha... den go play badminton le... haha... after that come home le... haha... shiok shiok... very relax today... not today lah... this week... haha... good... haha... i think i am nearly getting over le... k lah... haha... bub bye...

~yOz~

2004-09-22T07:55:00.000-07:00

haha... nothing to do today... erm... in the morning got PE... teacher never come... sian... haha... den chinese... also nothing de... hehe... den after recess... haha... art... haha... kena scolded... never bring art folio... haha... write down name... haha... den folkdance... sian... the dance damn boring de... den maths... erm... nothing de... den DnT... haha... do practical... shiok... do the wood... i make heart shape... hehe... den after school i go lot 1... hehe... go eat first... haha... den go library play... haha... shiok... me, seng ying and hong siah go "pao niu"... haha... nice nice... haha... den come home le nor... hehe... k lah... nothing le... hehe... bub byez...

~gAsTrIc~

2004-09-21T18:15:00.000-07:00

haha... just come back from badminton... haha... very easy today... haha... okie... today... morning got gastric pain... damn chum... pain like hell... for 4 period sia... den mr ong say later gastric too many time the stomach will have a hole... den everyone start to say me le... hehe... den go find mr heng... take medicine from him... den go recess le... erm... den CME... nothing de... den literature... ms lim come in call me ans question... den i dunno... den she ask me stand up... haiz... very chum... cuz i still got gastric... den reading... watch a love story... haiz... sad seh... the guy donate his eye cornea to his girlfriend... haiz... so sad... rather go blind than see his girlfriend suffer... haiz... den chinese... haha... nothing much... cuz very sian... den english le... eh... do what ah... erm... ah... group work... the pirate compo... den finish go badminton lor... shit lor... teck kai they all gang bang me... haiz... pain seh... now blue black le... hehe... den go badminton le lor... do little bit... den come home le... hehe... k lah... dun write le... today got abit moodswing... haiz... k lah... bub bye...

~fresh~

2004-09-20T15:30:00.000-07:00

haha... just come back from school... hehe... very shiok... haha... eh... jus now english... scary... doing group work... haha... den serene lai and lim E-lin come our class... haha... then i told yinling something... haha... very bad de... hehe... den later maths... not bad... lesson quite nice... haha... den leh... go recess... haha... den after recess... go dental... cuz friday never go... the sec 4 guy cry like mad... keep on"AH!!!AH!!!AH!!"... den i very scared... then the male dentist scold him... say he sissy... den i very scared... hair all stand up le... haha... den later the lady dentist ask me go... den i relieved... haha... den very fast over le... not pain de... the sec 4 guy very "kua zhang" seh... haha... den go music... got test... we all copy each other... haha... den science... haha... eugene touch charlene backside... haha... pro... hehe... den mr shasi go around holding diluted water... den ask question... den if dunno... he spray... haha... very fun... den mr shasi very pervert... tok until say cut the dogs "cock" into pieces... then yinling laugh like mad... den mr shasi say she very excited when hear this type of things... den yinling malu... haha... den she face red red... den go back sexuality lesson... teacher never come... haiz... sian... but the yinling siao de... take my water bottle spray me... spray until very shiok... haha... den talk about the garfield movie... sing the "I feel good"... den she laugh like crazy... haha... den nothing to do le... do our own work lor... haha... den later release le lor... haha...

~sUnDaY~

2004-09-19T11:30:00.000-07:00

today very sian... going out le... haiz... last nite cannot sleep... then this morning damn early wake up... but very energetic seh... sleep 5 hrs enough le... haha... still cannot get over... haiz... very guai leh... never mind... haha... dunno why... feel very free now... like nothing holding on to me now... but not used to it... haha... but... slowly... i will... i just have to relax... haha... dunno why... miss school very much... so long din go le... feel so guai... cuz at home never go out for 2 days le... very lonely... haiz... hao ji mo ah... now going out with ah lao... haha... go take the bag... haha... k lah... need to rush le... bub bye... see ya... ;)

~OvEr aGa|n~

2004-09-18T21:52:00.000-07:00

haiz... second entry of the day... haiz... break again... somemore is 18... last month break also 18... haiz... sian... feel that she is telling me lies... all lies... our days together is jus an act... haiz... i am just a replacement... haiz... dunno lah... she... i am not trying to blame her or what... but... it seem like i am being fooled for so long... all the promise... all the things she said... haiz... that time say i dun believe the 7 words... now... i dun even know whether she mean it... i guess... she herself also dunno... i am not angry... but is completely disappointed... haiz... anyway... i wun regret all those i have done... cuz... i know at least i tried my best... i did not disappoint myself... " its not failing that hurts... what hurts is knowing that you never tried you best"... after reading this... i felt better... hehe... since i have failed so many times... i should know that this is not what i am good at... i should just let go... and never look back again... its all over.................

~sIaN aH~

2004-09-18T13:00:00.000-07:00

haiz... confused now... what to do... haiz... its sounds like she is jus putting up a show during our times together... haiz... den now... very sian... what is she feeling now... if she say that i am really just a replacement... den all those things she said to me issit jus lies?... or what..? just to make me happy issit?.. what is she thinking... why am i so stupid... get hurt so many time still wan to be with her... haiz... but... sometimes... if you persevere... you may get the results you wan... haiz.... dunno lah... confused... should i let go... or persevere?... last year till now... always liddat... but i dun wan her to be unhappy... i have been waiting... now?? haiz... should i just let go??? haiz... dunno what to do le lah... haiz... but... since we are still stead... i should try to save the relationship... yah?... dun think of the worst 1st... haiz.. should give myself sometime to tink carefully... hope nothing bad will happen...